Sex. It’s what has shaped a lot of relationships these days lack of sex can ruin a good thing. It makes us think the worse, is someone else involved or am I not good enough. Cheating, something we pray don’t happen but know it might no matter how much we try to be our best for our lovers. Nothing you do or say can comtrol another persons actions. Once someone makes the decision to go outside of the relationship once loyalty and trust no longer is there. Just leave and pick yourself up for a brighter day ahead for you. Insane; what we become once we find out we’re being cheated on. We go through phones, bug cars and show up to unexpected places we weren’t invited to. We eat less, stress more and overthink every possible thing in our entire life. Soon worrying about keeping up with a cheater makes us go crazy and even they’ll call you that a lot. We know we aren’t crazy we know what is true we allow someone to manipulate us so much that somedays we ignore all signs and truly believe they are faithful. To do the same thing over and over like trusting a cheater hoping for a different outcome is you committing insanity and that’s the scarier part. When you lose yourself and all the love you have for the person you’ve spent your entire life to become. Depressed; is how we feel when we realize our heart and soul stepped out of our relationship to get what we couldn’t give them. Eventually there’s a break up or suicide. We worry so much in life about relationships with another person we never take care of ourselves and eventually it kills us we have to stop letting other situations eat us alive and just live life for the sun that kisses the back of our necks and the rain that makes the corn for our whiskey. I spent six years always waking up next to a man who made me feel so alone. I allowed someone to control my happiness and tell me that there wasn’t life with anyone else after them, that they where my only option. Today I wake up alone and I take a deep breath in and out to allow my deepest thoughts be free and listened to. I let go of the past for I no longer control it and no longer want it to haunt me and deprive me from sleep and the fruits of life. I chose to be happy and let the tortures of him no longer control that. I look to tomorrow and I say everyday I am beautiful. I am strong. I am enough. I am Tanell. And no one will ever change that.