I see it I see you and I know you both sit in my face and try to keep it a secret to save a face but I see you give all the answers I search for the ones I won’t ask but I’ll use to fall back on when I decide that I’m done fucking myself for the hopes that’s it’s not what I see it as. What do I do so wrong where every man is my fucking karma. Is the universe using the fact I love hard and my love for people is my weakness. So every wrong every sin every crime I commit I’m stuck with yet another lover that treats me like shit. Is this how women who I won’t commit to feels is this the reason life is beaten my ass because I’m always fucking over the good for the fucked up disloyal people. I don’t know how to feel am I supposed to hold it all in and allow people to just basically hold up a huge fuck you over my head and walk over me like a welcome mat. Or do I pretend I’m okay and silently disconnect and allow karma to fuck them with a wooden broom no lube. 

Don’t allow self esteem built by action be destroyed by words of another.